"holy" uncertainty

They say faith begins where logic ends. But what happens when logic starts asking questions faith can’t answer? This is the exact position I found myself in a couple days back.

Religion tends to feel more like an identity than a belief now. Religion has started to dictate every major worldly decision, from politics to equality, to law. Maybe this is the way of the modern world; a world where religion and knowledgeable affairs go hand in hand, but how healthy is this "development"? This is the logic behind my decision to challenge my religious beliefs. In the olden days, religion was a direct factor of war, whether you take in case of the Crusades, a religious war  between Christians and Muslims over control of Jerusalem, or the European Witch Hunts, where thousands of women were tortured and executed because religious authorities decided misfortune and fear equaled “witchcraft.” This bleak reality has only grown with modernization. From "love jihad" propaganda to religious terrorism on social media to the Roe v. Wade Overturn, where women's abortion rights were taken away in the name of religion. It doesn't seem to end. This cycle is eternal, and it always seems to stem from the human inability to accept something external and outward. So my question is, is religion, something so uncertain, worth the pain we have to endure?

The second part of this crisis of faith is the eternal question on the actuality and viability of god. I personally have 100% faith in the idea of a higher power, whichever it may be. Whether a god, the universe, science, or nature. Irrespective of the form, it exists. But my question here is about the belief in its absolute form. How can God exist in one form? How does religion propagate the idea of a singular God? People of different religions often believe their God created their people. But then, who created everyone else? Logically, if your God made you, the followers of other religions must’ve been created by their Gods. Yet many can’t even imagine that possibility since they're too caught up in their own biases and blind devotion to consider that there might be more than one way to exist. It's sad and simply a caged mentality.

Maybe the real challenge isn’t just questioning religion; it’s questioning the blind obedience that comes with it. Faith, when stripped of identity politics and human ego, could be beautiful. But too often, it becomes a cage: a justification for hate, fear, and control. My crisis of faith isn’t about rejecting the idea of a higher power; it’s about rejecting the chains we’ve tied around it. If God, or the universe, or whatever higher force exists, surely it is bigger than the divisions we humans create. And maybe the healthiest belief isn’t in a single story, a single dogma, or a single God; maybe it’s in the humility to accept that none of us have the full picture and that there might be countless ways to exist, believe, and live without destroying one another in the process.